OVERTHINKINGisasin
Singapore
22
Idealist
Daydreams
Architecture
Art
Drawing
Books
Traveling
Jumpers & Sweatshirts
Folk, Jazz and Orchestral

Hoping to study Architecture in the UK.



I feel like I’m slowly burning out. 
But I have to keep pushing even though it’s tiring and mentally draining, having to manage work and this. Also, let’s face it, the process is not going to be a smooth one and there will be times I face creative blocks, like now. So factor in all these buffer times and I have really super limited time.
On the bright side, the submission deadline is now 21st instead of 18th so I have extra 10 days at most in case my current deadline doesn’t quite work out :/
As Dory from Finding Nemo puts it:
Just keep swimming. Just keep swimming.

I feel like I’m slowly burning out. 

But I have to keep pushing even though it’s tiring and mentally draining, having to manage work and this. Also, let’s face it, the process is not going to be a smooth one and there will be times I face creative blocks, like now. So factor in all these buffer times and I have really super limited time.

On the bright side, the submission deadline is now 21st instead of 18th so I have extra 10 days at most in case my current deadline doesn’t quite work out :/

As Dory from Finding Nemo puts it:

Just keep swimming. Just keep swimming.

#overthinking #optimism #positivity #perseverance #43

We waste so many days waiting for weekend. So many nights wanting morning. Our lust for future comfort is the biggest thief of life.
Joshua Glenn Clark (via psych-facts)

(via psych-facts)


30 DAYS INTROSPECTIVE CHALLENGE

30. Have you learned more about yourself by answering these questions the past 30 days?

It’s been fun though I’ve always been a pretty reflective person.

We always do learn something about ourselves when we take time to think deeper. I just hope things don’t stop here and that life just gets better and better.

Tough yet better. Tougher yet worthwhile.

Kudos to life.

#Overthinking #deep #introspective #30 day challenge #day 30

Bill Hicks, Revelations (1993)

(Source: real-hiphophead, via darksilenceinsuburbia)



30 DAY INTROSPECTIVE CHALLENGE

29. What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you?

I think I judge myself more than people would sometimes.

But if I knew nobody would judge me, I would be so different it’s really hard to imagine. I would be so much closer to my world and obsession with arts, imagination and idealism. It would be a perfect world.

Then again, it’s always interesting to take someone else’s opinions as a form of motivation to be better than you think you are capable of being. 

#Overthinking #30 day challenge #deep #introspective #day 29

30 DAY INTROSPECTIVE CHALLENGE

28. If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake?

Because sometimes we are afraid that we may never be able to stand again should we fall.

 

#Overthinking #30 day challenge #day 28 #deep #introspective

30 DAY INTROSPECTIVE CHALLENGE

27. When is it time to stop calculating risk and rewards, and just go ahead and do what you know is right?

When there’s something you are really passionate about (though not everyone will be sure of their own passion), or really driven to achieve. 

You would probably have to be willing to take risks, look at failure in the face and just push on. Those will be the times when you trust your intuition and let experience be your teacher to calculating risk and rewards. 

#Overthinking #30 day challenge #introspective #deep #day 27

These past 6 days have been insane. It’s one of the most tiring moments I’ve ever felt in my life thus far.
The amount of catch-up I’m trying to play, the amount of stress I place upon myself and the fear of disappointment. I’m just going to get everything out of my mind and just move on with what I can do.
There are 53 days left for my personal submission in order to make the criteria for scholarship, should I make it. And in the past 6 days, I’ve made zero progress. I either ended up sleeping or procrastinating till I was tired. This is the most stressful factor.
I’m trying to play catch-up in my day job and I’ve been OT-ing everyday. I’m being too perfectionist and trying to make a good impression I’m jeopardizing my own well-being and time. I know very well my colleagues do not encourage OT but I’m still doing it. I need to manage this part better.
This is wrong but I feel like I’m envying some of my friends too much, it’s probably cause they are living the life that I’ve always wanted and maybe they have much more drive, determination, passion, discipline and talent to bring them that far. It makes me feel like I’m nowhere near my mountain top and I’m just getting further and further; that I’m straying away from the things I love to do. 
I’m easily irritated now and frustrated I wish I could have my own space and peace and quiet with zero disturbance but I guess I’m just putting the blame on everything else other than me.
Well, at least I’ve put things into perspective. Time to move on and keep pushing.

These past 6 days have been insane. It’s one of the most tiring moments I’ve ever felt in my life thus far.

The amount of catch-up I’m trying to play, the amount of stress I place upon myself and the fear of disappointment. I’m just going to get everything out of my mind and just move on with what I can do.

  • There are 53 days left for my personal submission in order to make the criteria for scholarship, should I make it. And in the past 6 days, I’ve made zero progress. I either ended up sleeping or procrastinating till I was tired. This is the most stressful factor.
  • I’m trying to play catch-up in my day job and I’ve been OT-ing everyday. I’m being too perfectionist and trying to make a good impression I’m jeopardizing my own well-being and time. I know very well my colleagues do not encourage OT but I’m still doing it. I need to manage this part better.
  • This is wrong but I feel like I’m envying some of my friends too much, it’s probably cause they are living the life that I’ve always wanted and maybe they have much more drive, determination, passion, discipline and talent to bring them that far. It makes me feel like I’m nowhere near my mountain top and I’m just getting further and further; that I’m straying away from the things I love to do. 
  • I’m easily irritated now and frustrated I wish I could have my own space and peace and quiet with zero disturbance but I guess I’m just putting the blame on everything else other than me.

Well, at least I’ve put things into perspective. Time to move on and keep pushing.

#overthinking #rant #worries #stress #sleepless nights

30 DAY INTROSPECTIVE CHALLENGE

26. What is the difference between being alive and truly living?

I think both could be pretty similar in a way. Being alive would mean to live in the moment with your senses and just appreciate the moments while truly living is to live your day to day with a sense of purpose. 

I don’t know, my mind is in a mess now so I can’t think straight.

But the best reference and one of my favorite quotes would be from Oscar Wilde:

"To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all."

#30 day challenge #deep #introspective #overthinking #day 26


30 DAY INTROSPECTIVE CHALLENGE

25. Would you be willing to reduce your life expectancy by 10 years to become extremely attractive or famous?

No way. That’s just stupid. 

Moments of appreciation and recognition are way better earned no matter how tough it may be.

#overthinking #30 day challenge #day 25 #introspective #deep

Focus

I need to be super disciplined and focus.

I need to manage my time better.

It’s all gonna be challenging but its worth the while.

#Overthinking

Screwed

This house is depressing now. 

I’m gonna go nuts if it starts again.

I just want to come home and be at peace, able to deal with my personal stuff and just chill. 

It’s not a normal home.

I cannot accept his behaviour, its so fucked up if it starts again. It’s unforgivable. It just isn’t. It just makes me feel so uneasy that this kind of thing is happening.

Now, I can’t even concentrate because I’m afraid it can trigger off anytime. It’s so fucking disturbing. FUCK. 

#overthinking

30 DAY INTROSPECTIVE CHALLENGE

24. If you knew that everyone you know was going to die tomorrow, who would you visit today?

This is so hard. I really don’t know. It seems impossible to visit everyone. Plus, I’ve always been afraid of commitment so…

Or at least, I don’t have anyone I would desperately want to see before he/she or I die.

It’s kinda pathetic to think about it.

:(

#overthinking #30 day challenge #deep #introspective #day 24

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