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Hoping to study Architecture in the UK.



30 DAY INTROSPECTIVE CHALLENGE

8. If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be?

The last thing that should stop you from doing anything is fear. 

Overcoming fear will allow you to realize the things you never thought you were capable of achieving.

#overthinking #30 day challene #introspective #deep #day 8

30 DAY INTROSPECTIVE CHALLENGE

7. Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things?

I tend to worry more about doing things right at work, but doing the right things morally.

I think the latter is more important.

#overthinking #30 day challenge #deep #introspective

30 DAY INTROSPECTIVE CHALLENGE

6. To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken?

Not until I was 19.

#overthinking #30 day challenge #deep #introspective #day 6

30 DAY INTROSPECTIVE CHALLENGE

5. If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently?

If I knew it now, I would follow my heart instead of overthinking everything. I would start backpacking around the world and experience life to the fullest. It’d probably be too late to get married but heck, maybe somewhere along the way I would find someone.

#overthinking #30 day challenge #deep #introspective

30 DAY INTROSPECTIVE CHALLENGE

4. Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you are doing?

Doing what I believe in. 

We should all do what we believe is right, or go after what we love. Sometimes it isn’t easy but it’s always worth the effort.

But life doesn’t always go our way and there will be times we have to professional and do what we have to do no matter how much we dislike something.

#overthinking #introspective #30 day challenge #deep

108 days. That’s my deadline for AA applications. 
I’m bad with relationships. All kinds. Especially when graduation’s all said and done. I’m just bad at keeping up with people.
I guess, to me, meeting old friends feel really difficult when the future is somewhat intertwined with the conversations.
"So, what are you going to do…?" 
I hate and I can’t answer those questions. It’s like forcing me to slap myself in the face for not being certain of the future. It makes me see the worse side of myself when everyone else seems to be going on fine. Or maybe I just expect too much out of myself. 
Don’t get me wrong, sometimes I genuinely want to know and feel that my friends are doing well but having to get through the questions about the future are the worst parts. I probably just end up running away anyways or I will end up whining like a loser at 22 years old.
That’s why I’m terrible with relationships and maintaining friendship. I can’t even get past myself and this… psychological side of me. 
Maybe one day, all these will change. I hope they do. For now, I’m fine being by myself and hopefully one day I feel proud enough to look at my friends in the eyes without having to worry about my future any longer. 
Fuck the perfectionist side of me. 
Fuck it.

108 days. That’s my deadline for AA applications. 

I’m bad with relationships. All kinds. Especially when graduation’s all said and done. I’m just bad at keeping up with people.

I guess, to me, meeting old friends feel really difficult when the future is somewhat intertwined with the conversations.

"So, what are you going to do…?" 

I hate and I can’t answer those questions. It’s like forcing me to slap myself in the face for not being certain of the future. It makes me see the worse side of myself when everyone else seems to be going on fine. Or maybe I just expect too much out of myself. 

Don’t get me wrong, sometimes I genuinely want to know and feel that my friends are doing well but having to get through the questions about the future are the worst parts. I probably just end up running away anyways or I will end up whining like a loser at 22 years old.

That’s why I’m terrible with relationships and maintaining friendship. I can’t even get past myself and this… psychological side of me. 

Maybe one day, all these will change. I hope they do. For now, I’m fine being by myself and hopefully one day I feel proud enough to look at my friends in the eyes without having to worry about my future any longer. 

Fuck the perfectionist side of me. 

Fuck it.

#overthinking #rant

30 DAY INTROSPECTIVE CHALLENGE

3. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?

If I were to die today, I would’ve said more than I’ve done.

I have so many aspirations and things I want to do that I can get too caught up with the moment. I would overthink, get overwhelmed and become too paralyzed to do anything.

But by the time I die, I would like my actions to speak louder than my words and thoughts.

#overthinking #deep #introspective #30 day challenge

HOW DID I PUT OFF WATCHING THIS MOVIE FOR ALMOST 3 MONTHS??
And I’m not gonna lie, I cried at the end. The final scene, the acting, the story, the ending song by The National, everything was poetry in motion…
I’ve watched loads of sports movie but this movie just blew me away.
The whole time Tommy (Tom Hardy) was still in limbo, trapped in the past, unable to forgive his family for what they’ve done. Throughout the whole time, he was the lone wolf and he fought with so much anger; like a little kid who felt like the whole world was his enemy and all he wanted to do was to fight against it.
Especially the final round when both brothers fought, where Tommy must have long waited for the chance to unleash all his anger physically onto Brendan(Joel Edgerton)
Then, the final scene, when Brendan realized he would have to force Tommy to submit himself and apologized in the process. He also told Tommy he loved him and as a sign of forgiveness, Tommy finally tapped himself out.
The movie ended with Brendan unwilling to be in the spotlight, recognizing that family was above the very reason he was in the competition in the first place (The money) and insisting that the brothers will leave the center stage immediately. 
One of the best movies I’ve ever watched. 
Period.

HOW DID I PUT OFF WATCHING THIS MOVIE FOR ALMOST 3 MONTHS??

And I’m not gonna lie, I cried at the end. The final scene, the acting, the story, the ending song by The National, everything was poetry in motion…

I’ve watched loads of sports movie but this movie just blew me away.

The whole time Tommy (Tom Hardy) was still in limbo, trapped in the past, unable to forgive his family for what they’ve done. Throughout the whole time, he was the lone wolf and he fought with so much anger; like a little kid who felt like the whole world was his enemy and all he wanted to do was to fight against it.

Especially the final round when both brothers fought, where Tommy must have long waited for the chance to unleash all his anger physically onto Brendan(Joel Edgerton)

Then, the final scene, when Brendan realized he would have to force Tommy to submit himself and apologized in the process. He also told Tommy he loved him and as a sign of forgiveness, Tommy finally tapped himself out.

The movie ended with Brendan unwilling to be in the spotlight, recognizing that family was above the very reason he was in the competition in the first place (The money) and insisting that the brothers will leave the center stage immediately. 

One of the best movies I’ve ever watched. 

Period.

#warrior+2011 #overthinking #movie #awesome #afterthoughts #tom hardy #joel edgerton

"I’m sorry Tommy. I’m sorry… Tap, Tom. It’s OK. It’s OK. I love you. I love you, Tommy."

(Source: sulietsexual)



Warrior + my emotions - asked by bloodbuzz-smartypants

Warrior + my emotions - asked by bloodbuzz-smartypants

(Source: iwanrheoning, via buckybarnesis)


30 DAY INTROSPECTIVE CHALLENGE

2. Which is worse, failing or never trying?

Never trying.

But I hate the fear of failure as well. 

#overthinking #deep #introspetive #30 day challenge

re: 30 DAY INTROSPECTIVE CHALLENGE

This challenge is all about you: your values, your beliefs, your true essence.  Answer the questions thoughtfully and truthfully in order to gain a greater understanding of who you really are.

1. How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are?

Probably 30-40+? Haha, I’m way too serious for a 22 year-old and people probably find me dull and boring too. But I’m definitely not wise enough to hit the 55-70+ range yet ;)

#overthinking #deep #introspective #30 day challenge

Re: 23 DEEP ASS questions.
1. What is more difficult for you, looking into someones eyes when you are telling someone how you feel, or looking into someones eyes when they are telling you how they feel?
Looking into someone’s eyes when I have to tell them how I feel, I suck at expressing myself, especially when it comes to my own feelings.
2. Think of the last time you were REALLY angry. WHY were you angry? Do you still feel the same way?
When things went bad with N. I guess I was confused and angry because the whole situation went beyond my control and expectations. I don’t, and things have changed since anyway.

3. You are on a flight from Honolulu to Chicago non-stop. There is a fire in the back of the plane. You have enough time to make ONE phone call. Who do you call? What do you tell them?
I guess at this moment, it would be my parents, especially my Mom. To tell her I love her and for bringing me up and giving me a chance to be my own man.

4. You are at the doctor’s office and he has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? What do you do with your remaining days? Would you be afraid?
Other than my loved ones, I never felt comfortable telling anyone about myself, let alone the fact that I’m going to die. I hate the attention on me. I would be afraid of course, but I will pick up the pace and courage fast and travel the world. Do the things I never dared to and most of all, to contribute to humanity in the best possible way.

5. You can have one of the following two things. Which do you choose? Why? Love and Trust.
To be honest, both seems intertwined to me. Trust stems from love in some ways. If I had to go with one, it would be Love because all good things stem from a certain amount of love.
6. You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late even once more, you are fired. Do you take the time to save the dogs life? Why or Why not?
I would save the dog (To be honest I can’t swim lol) and screw the job. The same life doesn’t come twice like job interviews do.

7. Would you rather be hurt by the one you trust the most or the one you love the most?
The one you love the most.

8. Your best friend confesses that he/she has feelings for you more than just friendship. He/she is falling in love with you. What do you (or did you) do/say?
I’d probably have to take time off to absorb. Truth be told, I’m usually the one falling for friends instead.

9. Think of the last person who you know that died. You have the chance to give them 1 hour of life back, but you have to give up one year of yours. Do you do it? Why or Why not?
Can’t say much, hasn’t happened to me yet.

10. Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend?
Not as much as my younger self. He was more naive and innocent.

11. Does love = sex?
No. But sex that actually means something to both individuals would be different. 

12.Your boss tells your coworker that they have to let them go because of work shortage, and they are the newest employee. You have been there much longer. Your coworker has a family to support and no other means of income. Do you go to your boss and offer to leave the company? Why or Why not?
No, I would not. There are more practical solutions to going around the issue rather than jumping into conclusions in the heat of the moment. Not unless the boss is an asshole. I would definitely offer financial support for my coworker though. 

13.When was the last time you told someone HONESTLY how you felt regardless of how difficult it was for you to say? Who was it? What did you have to tell the person?
Probably N. I said what I had to say but my words probably meant nothing because my actions didn’t back anything. I’m used to living in my head.

14. What would be (or what was) harder for you to tell a member of the opposite/same sex, you love them or that you do not love them back?
Loving them. Being heart-broken takes a longer time to heal compared to giving a heart-break.

15. What do you think would be the hardest thing for you to give up? Why would it be hard to lose?
Sensitivity. I live and die with it.

16. Excluding romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you loved them. Who were they to you?
To be honest, I never did. 

17. If there was one moment and one time in the last month what would you change and why?
Don’t get the question.

18. Would you give a homeless person CPR if they were dying? Why or Why not?
Yes. I will live with guilt had I not done anything to make a difference.

19.You are holding onto your grandmother’s hand and the hand of a newborn that you do not know as they hang over the edge of a cliff. You have to let one go to save the other. Who do you let fall to their death? What was your rationale for making the decision?
How is a newborn even capable of hanging over the edge of a cliff? I would go with the newborn but I think my life may change from there. 

20. Are you old fashioned?
Yep.

21. When was the last time you were nice to someone and did NOT expect anything in return for it?
Always.

22.Which would you choose, true love with a guarantee of a broken heart, or never loved at all? Why?
True love. What’s the point of living without going through real emotions?

23.If you could do anything or wish anything, what would it be?
For the courage to be who I am and not feel sorry for being who I am. It’s been tough mentally. But when that happens, I want to make a difference in life.
#overthinking #23 deep questions #ponder #thoughts #deep

DEEP THOUGHTS 30 DAY CHALLENGE

icarustemptingfate:

1. What happened today? If it was the last day of your life, how satisfied would you be with your final hours?

2. Who are you? In comparison to who you used to be. What made you change?

3. Where have you been spending your time lately? Three/Five/Ten years ago would you have expected to be…


Deep Questions

  • 1: Close your eyes and think of five things that make you smile when you think about them. What are they?
  • 2: If your house was on fire and you had sixty seconds to leave, what would you take with you?
  • 3: When you're alone in the middle of the night and you can't quite get to sleep, what do you think about? "Going to sleep" doesn't count.
  • 4: What is love to you?
  • 5: What is the opposite of love?
  • 6: Is it possible to love someone if you don't love yourself?
  • 7: Do you believe mutual attraction based on mutual hatred is possible?
  • 8: Is it better to have something amazing and lose it or to never have had it to begin with?
  • 9: Do you focus more on the past, the present, or the future?
  • 10: Do you judge people for what they wear or how they express themselves?
  • 11: Do you believe in individuals over generalisations?
  • 12: When you're very scared or worried, what do you think about or do to help you feel better?
  • 13: How do you feel about what happens after death?
  • 14: Would you rather live a hedonistic life full of good things that make you feel good even if they're bad for you, or a healthy life centered around treating your body like a sacred temple and watching your health as closely as possible? Or do you not care either way?
  • 15: Do you think you can tell a lot about a person from the way they express themselves or answer questions like these?
  • 16: Do you have any special or magical memories you'll always have with you?
  • 17: How would you define yourself, without saying your name or giving a physical description of yourself or your obvious personality?
  • 18: When do you feel truly at peace?
  • 19: Do you like having your worldview or opinions challenged or questioned?
  • 20: Do you believe happiness can exist without sadness?
  • 21: Is there a reason for existence?
  • 22: Do you think the world existed before you did?
  • 23: Do you believe people need breaks from each other, even if they're deeply in love?
  • 24: What do you find most beautiful in people?
  • 25: Do you take questions like these literally or pick up on what they really mean?


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