OVERTHINKINGisasin
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Hoping to study Architecture in the UK.



30 DAY INTROSPECTIVE CHALLENGE

13. Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend?

I think I’m too self-aware to like myself and accept myself as the kind of friend I would want. Friends need to spend time together and often I’d just prefer to be on my own.

I just pride myself in being the best I can be and someone worthy of respect.

I just think that being a genuine and good human being would be more than enough.

#overthinking #30 day challenge #introspective #deep #day 13

30 DAY INTROSPECTIVE CHALLENGE

12. Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton?

I think at the moment, I’d rather be a worried genius because I’m young and I should be taking risks and voyaging on the unknown. I’d probably want to be a joyful simpleton by the time I hit the 40-50’s.

#overthinking #30 day introspective challenge #introspective #deep #day 12

30 DAY INTROSPECTIVE CHALLENGE

11. Are you holding onto something you need to let go of?

I always hold onto things I’d wish undone and regretful.

I guess from today onwards, I want to focus on what I can work on and not be too carried away by people’s opinions and instead trust more on my guts, intuition and determination.

#overthinking #deep #introspective #30 day challenge #day 11 #motivation #optimism

Ride

It’s been more than a week since my grandma’s passing and surely the week had been weird, tiring, emotional and just different from any other day I’ve went through.

Besides that, one of my peers in camp has been starting to irritate me, getting under my skin and into my head (which I’ve only realized now). I’m disturbed by his behaviour and attitude and like how I’ve always taken things too personally, this one got to me too. 

I only realized it when I was reading through Marc and Angels’ post as usual on the topic of toxic behaviours. People like me always assumed words were being directed at us in one way or another.

But the truth is that it’s more about them than it really is about me, their opinions are simply reflections of how they perceive things and at times, the world. We don’t always have to feed to it and let them get to us in a negative way. We can always choose to take it with a pinch of salt and trust our instincts and intuition more.

I’m just gonna let it go because what really does matter more is what I do from NOW. Things don’t always stay the same and we always have the chance to make a difference.

#overthinking #personal #negativity #optimism

30 DAY INTROSPECTIVE CHALLENGE

It’s been busy for a while and I’ve forgotten to update on this challenge for nearly a week. So I will do 2 more now and carry on tomorrow.

9. Would you break the law to save a loved one?

Yes, definitely. If I really do love that person.

10. What one thing have you not done that you really want to do?  What’s holding you back?

I have loads that I want to do but not to the extend I can nitpick one yet.

But I’m slowly picking up the pace and doing things I really want to.

If anything, self-doubt and fear always holds me back.

#overthinking #30 deep challenge #introspective #deep #day 9 #day 10

30 DAY INTROSPECTIVE CHALLENGE

8. If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be?

The last thing that should stop you from doing anything is fear. 

Overcoming fear will allow you to realize the things you never thought you were capable of achieving.

#overthinking #30 day challene #introspective #deep #day 8

30 DAY INTROSPECTIVE CHALLENGE

7. Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things?

I tend to worry more about doing things right at work, but doing the right things morally.

I think the latter is more important.

#overthinking #30 day challenge #deep #introspective

30 DAY INTROSPECTIVE CHALLENGE

6. To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken?

Not until I was 19.

#overthinking #30 day challenge #deep #introspective #day 6

30 DAY INTROSPECTIVE CHALLENGE

5. If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently?

If I knew it now, I would follow my heart instead of overthinking everything. I would start backpacking around the world and experience life to the fullest. It’d probably be too late to get married but heck, maybe somewhere along the way I would find someone.

#overthinking #30 day challenge #deep #introspective

30 DAY INTROSPECTIVE CHALLENGE

4. Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you are doing?

Doing what I believe in. 

We should all do what we believe is right, or go after what we love. Sometimes it isn’t easy but it’s always worth the effort.

But life doesn’t always go our way and there will be times we have to professional and do what we have to do no matter how much we dislike something.

#overthinking #introspective #30 day challenge #deep

108 days. That’s my deadline for AA applications. 
I’m bad with relationships. All kinds. Especially when graduation’s all said and done. I’m just bad at keeping up with people.
I guess, to me, meeting old friends feel really difficult when the future is somewhat intertwined with the conversations.
"So, what are you going to do…?" 
I hate and I can’t answer those questions. It’s like forcing me to slap myself in the face for not being certain of the future. It makes me see the worse side of myself when everyone else seems to be going on fine. Or maybe I just expect too much out of myself. 
Don’t get me wrong, sometimes I genuinely want to know and feel that my friends are doing well but having to get through the questions about the future are the worst parts. I probably just end up running away anyways or I will end up whining like a loser at 22 years old.
That’s why I’m terrible with relationships and maintaining friendship. I can’t even get past myself and this… psychological side of me. 
Maybe one day, all these will change. I hope they do. For now, I’m fine being by myself and hopefully one day I feel proud enough to look at my friends in the eyes without having to worry about my future any longer. 
Fuck the perfectionist side of me. 
Fuck it.

108 days. That’s my deadline for AA applications. 

I’m bad with relationships. All kinds. Especially when graduation’s all said and done. I’m just bad at keeping up with people.

I guess, to me, meeting old friends feel really difficult when the future is somewhat intertwined with the conversations.

"So, what are you going to do…?" 

I hate and I can’t answer those questions. It’s like forcing me to slap myself in the face for not being certain of the future. It makes me see the worse side of myself when everyone else seems to be going on fine. Or maybe I just expect too much out of myself. 

Don’t get me wrong, sometimes I genuinely want to know and feel that my friends are doing well but having to get through the questions about the future are the worst parts. I probably just end up running away anyways or I will end up whining like a loser at 22 years old.

That’s why I’m terrible with relationships and maintaining friendship. I can’t even get past myself and this… psychological side of me. 

Maybe one day, all these will change. I hope they do. For now, I’m fine being by myself and hopefully one day I feel proud enough to look at my friends in the eyes without having to worry about my future any longer. 

Fuck the perfectionist side of me. 

Fuck it.

#overthinking #rant

30 DAY INTROSPECTIVE CHALLENGE

3. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?

If I were to die today, I would’ve said more than I’ve done.

I have so many aspirations and things I want to do that I can get too caught up with the moment. I would overthink, get overwhelmed and become too paralyzed to do anything.

But by the time I die, I would like my actions to speak louder than my words and thoughts.

#overthinking #deep #introspective #30 day challenge

HOW DID I PUT OFF WATCHING THIS MOVIE FOR ALMOST 3 MONTHS??
And I’m not gonna lie, I cried at the end. The final scene, the acting, the story, the ending song by The National, everything was poetry in motion…
I’ve watched loads of sports movie but this movie just blew me away.
The whole time Tommy (Tom Hardy) was still in limbo, trapped in the past, unable to forgive his family for what they’ve done. Throughout the whole time, he was the lone wolf and he fought with so much anger; like a little kid who felt like the whole world was his enemy and all he wanted to do was to fight against it.
Especially the final round when both brothers fought, where Tommy must have long waited for the chance to unleash all his anger physically onto Brendan(Joel Edgerton)
Then, the final scene, when Brendan realized he would have to force Tommy to submit himself and apologized in the process. He also told Tommy he loved him and as a sign of forgiveness, Tommy finally tapped himself out.
The movie ended with Brendan unwilling to be in the spotlight, recognizing that family was above the very reason he was in the competition in the first place (The money) and insisting that the brothers will leave the center stage immediately. 
One of the best movies I’ve ever watched. 
Period.

HOW DID I PUT OFF WATCHING THIS MOVIE FOR ALMOST 3 MONTHS??

And I’m not gonna lie, I cried at the end. The final scene, the acting, the story, the ending song by The National, everything was poetry in motion…

I’ve watched loads of sports movie but this movie just blew me away.

The whole time Tommy (Tom Hardy) was still in limbo, trapped in the past, unable to forgive his family for what they’ve done. Throughout the whole time, he was the lone wolf and he fought with so much anger; like a little kid who felt like the whole world was his enemy and all he wanted to do was to fight against it.

Especially the final round when both brothers fought, where Tommy must have long waited for the chance to unleash all his anger physically onto Brendan(Joel Edgerton)

Then, the final scene, when Brendan realized he would have to force Tommy to submit himself and apologized in the process. He also told Tommy he loved him and as a sign of forgiveness, Tommy finally tapped himself out.

The movie ended with Brendan unwilling to be in the spotlight, recognizing that family was above the very reason he was in the competition in the first place (The money) and insisting that the brothers will leave the center stage immediately. 

One of the best movies I’ve ever watched. 

Period.

#warrior+2011 #overthinking #movie #awesome #afterthoughts #tom hardy #joel edgerton

"I’m sorry Tommy. I’m sorry… Tap, Tom. It’s OK. It’s OK. I love you. I love you, Tommy."

(Source: sulietsexual)



Warrior + my emotions - asked by bloodbuzz-smartypants

Warrior + my emotions - asked by bloodbuzz-smartypants

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